The Intuitive Tarot edition 2

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Many people want a deck of The Intuitive Tarot but it’s out of print and the publishers aren’t interested in reprinting. In the end I decided that I would self-publish a 2nd edition. I’m getting quotes now, but will have to crowd fund it … I’ll put a link on here when I start the process. The new cards will be the same size as the Devas of Creation ( 88 x 126 cm) with a dark blue title border at the bottom of the card. There’ll be a 96 page booklet and a link to the original .pdf on my tarot website – and possibly on here too – for those who buy the new deck and want the original book as well.


However, just a heads-up to keep an eye out as next year I may amalgamate this blog into my CillaConway website. If so, I’ll let you know.

Love, relationships, and tarot card reading

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Love. The perennial issue for a client who comes for a tarot reading. When things get too confusing and we wish we could talk to someone for help, we sometimes search for online tarot reading sites.

Relationships are never straightforward, however mature or sensible we are. In addition, we are led to believe – by society, by our parents, and social network – that love is something we have to have in our lives: we must have a husband, wife, lover, children, friends. And therein lies the problem – all these people have their own lives, they are not accessories. Unfortunately that’s how many of us see them: someone who adds to the comfort of our own lives.

But this is not love, which is one of the most powerful feelings in the world. It often comes upon us like an arrow speeding on its way from the arrow of some benevolent god or a whimsical universe. It can grow on us slowly and almost imperceptibly, out of friendship or even propinquity. It can begin with a baby’s cry, or the trust in someone’s eyes. It is about connection, the feeling we belong, we have value. When it begins, we feel as though the world has changed from monochrome to brilliant colour: anything is possible now. In addition, when sex is involved, the power of love is ramped up by an order of magnitude, which is where we usually have the problems – we get addicted to one particular person, and can’t imagine how we can live if they don’t feel the same, or if their feelings change.

Sadly, when we fall in love, especially at the beginning, we project huge amounts onto the other person. This means we ascribe the other person qualities that really belong to ourselves: imagination, generosity, intelligence, unselfishness, tenderness, etc. (Later on these positive projections often switch over to the negative, and instead of imagination we see the other person’s faults – stubbornness, lack of imagination, stupidity, selfishness – but they are still more likely to be our own, projected onto the other person.) It’s like a curtain falls in our brain, preventing us from seeing others as whole people, which is the reason so many relationships fail: they are based on nothing more than smnoke and  mirrors.


This stage of love is where tarot readers often get desperate calls … ‘is it possible to see you today’. You can tell that it’s about reassurance about a relationship. ‘My boyfriend has stopped calling, does he still love me?’ or, ‘we broke up a month ago, will he (or she) come back?’

Regrettably, the tarot is not a miracle cure, or all readers would be rich. Nor do the cards display much in the way of reassurance in these situations. If someone has decided a relationship is over, it’s unlikely that they will return or, if they do, the relationship is unlikely to prosper – unless the underlying problems are dealt with, and that takes self-awareness and willingness by both partners to look honestly at themselves. The cards will just reflect that reality. 

It is possible to build a good, long-term loving relationship. However, the process is still liable to be challenging in the extreme, because all relationships (even those at work or in the family) reflect every issue we need to look at – everything we dislike about ourselves will be mirrored in the relationship itself. One-to-one relationships are like a triangle – you, the other person and the connection itself (if you have children, they just add to the complexity). The triangle is a very stable entity, but that tends to hamper movement. Like it or not, where there’s life, there is change, and the more we try to prevent it, the more it happens. The outside world impinges upon us, and forces change upon us… not always benevolently. One partner loses a job. Or someone dear to them. One wants to move home, the other doesn’t, or hates the new place. One partner becomes very successful, or is left a huge amount of money, while the other is left feeling inferior or angry. It is very rare that you will get two people changing in the same way at the same time. And, of course, then the differences mount and communication stutters and, before you know it, the relationship is in trouble.

All these issues are compounded by societal pressures, as many people consider that their lives are not worthwhile unless they are in a relationship and, given the importance of love and the need for connection, that’s not surprising. What society doesn’t emphasize enough is that relationships will fail, unless both people in a relationship are authentic and willing to see the other’s point of view. They also need to be able to live a fulfilled, satisfying life as independent human beings. There are of course many other factors that aid or kill off relationships, but as a reader I have been astonished at how naive many of my clients are. They’ve found someone to love, and they then think all that it takes to have an everlasting relationship is to will it – often putting aside their own needs and beliefs to do that. But neither determination nor any sort of controlling or self-abnegating behaviour is going to make that happen. If both partners love each other enough, and can love themselves enough to see what the relationship requires, they may be successful. Otherwise, the tarot will not predict a happy ending.

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I have drawn some cards to look at the outcome of the US election in two days’ time, though unfortunately it doesn’t look too hopeful – every card I’ve drawn is reversed.

The card for Mitt Romney is the Star (reversed); Obama gets the Ten of Cups (ditto), and when in desperation I asked well, who will be the president in the end, I got the King of Discs reversed.

I can’t say this makes me optimistic for the outcome: it certainly looks like America’s love affair with Obama is over, though I don’t need a crystal ball (or whatever) to tell me that.
TenCups reversed

Romney’s card is a Major Arcana, and is usually read as hope renewed after the trials and tribulations of life. But reversed it’s more about fading hope, the need for a new perspective and (I like this bit) unresolved pain disguised as arrogance or pessimism.

And what to make of the last card, the Presidential outcome – The King of Discs reversed?

King Discs Reversed

I’d say it looks like a hung vote which will need to go to a final recount – as happened with George W Bush and Al Gore and, given that the outcome is the King of Discs as opposed to, say, the King of Wands or Swords, it looks like Romney will get it. The reversal then indicates that it’s not a particularly great outcome. The King of Discs upside down is a businessman (i.e. Republican), obstinate, arrogant, insensitive, who considers his tactlessness ‘plain speaking’. He can be dull, greedy and inconsiderate, manipulative and controlling.

So unfortunately it looks like we’re going to return to an America with a dodo for president. The only consolation is that there are so many checks and balances on a bad president that he doesn’t get too many options to show his true colours. But our experience with Bush and, probably now with Romney, indicates that the Americans still tend to believe in pie-in-the-sky: Obama has done a huge amount quietly, taking risks when necessary but being cautious when he needed to be. Unfortunately he isn’t someone who enjoys talking himself up, and the GOP is very good at talking him down. All in all, if my interpretation of the cards is right, it’s a win for style over substance.


7th November 2012

Well, all I can say is thank god my interpretation was wrong!!!



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For those of us lucky enough to be in London at the moment, it has really been our year. The Queen’s Jubilee was a pageant on the grandest scale; the Olympics have been stunning and inclusive, making us proud to be part of this great city; and, just before autumn begins to draw in, we have the icing on the cake, in the form of the UK Tarot Conference at the Thistle Barbican Hotel on the 12-13th October.

Rachel Pollack, a well-known and highly-respected visitor from the US kicks off with a talk on what tarot is, what it does, and how it does it (I wish all clients could come to this one), goes on to look at multi-diimensional readings; and finishes with all the different books she’s had published this year. Juliet Sharman-Burke investigates The Hermit (a subject dear to my heart right now, as I’ve just started painting a new tarot, the inspiration for it being The Hermit – I’ll be posting the images as I complete them, so keep checking). Tiffany Crosara speaks about ‘Bringing the Tarot Alive’ and – a real treat this – Alfred Douglas is attending to have an informal talk about the tarot and magical orders.

Also, in the afternoon on Saturday I’m talking about the Tarot and the Shadow. We all enjoy getting the ‘good’ cards, and cringe when the difficult, awkward, shadow images turn up. Why, though, do we try to avoid them? One of the great things about the Tarot is that we are actually encouraged to explore the shadow sides of ourselves through cards like The Moon, The Devil, 5 and 7 of Swords, etc. Working through these unpleasant aspects of ourselves is one way – indeed, the only way – to reach the state of integration depicted in The World. This integration is, I believe, what the Mystery religions were all about, and their many initiatory levels are reflected in the different stages of understanding depicted in the Major Arcana.

Intrigued? Come along to the Conference – we’d love to see you there.


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The underlying message of all oracles:

‘We will now show you a little part of its divine intention, a part that pertains directly to you. Be assured that you are not alone. You belong to the Matrix that holds and beholds us all.’

So, if we have eyes to see and ears to hear, the message is that the universe is both intelligent and purposeful.

Taken from ‘When Oracles Speak‘ – Diane Skafte

What can Tarot Card Meanings tell us about the UK Election result?

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I sometimes ask the Tarot to predict the outcome of various situations. Putting myself on the line like this is an interesting challenge!

So, earlier this week I drew a few cards to look at the results of the UK General Election (the voting for which ended nearly an hour ago). This evening I realised that if I want to make this a prediction, rather than a corroboration (or contradiction), I needed to get writing!

The first card was The Wheel (change, a major shift), and Healing/Compassion from the Devas of Creation. Well, we know the country does need healing; the economy is in a parlous state and because of that, many people are feeling vulnerable and short of money. Not only that, with the economies of Greece and Spain down the pan – and owing massive amounts to all the other European countries – we may all need quite a lot of compassion in the next few months.

I then asked about the next prime minister and got the impulse to draw 2 cards (a hung parliament?). The first was the Nine of Rods reversed [Wands] – a strong man but wounded, and very defensive (maybe with a few blind spots) (Brown, I assume).

The other was someone lying down, back towards us, looking at all the energy flying around. The meaning for that card (7 Discs) is an observer, someone who watches everything before he acts. It was also reversed, which I interpret to mean that he is waiting, or may have waited for rather too long before taking any action. There’s also a need to look honestly at one’s motivation before acting. I guess this is the Liberal Democrat Nick Clegg (one of my criticisms of the LibDems was always that they didn’t see themselves winning until quite recently, after Clegg impressed everyone in the televised debate). However, the reversals could refer to a hung parliament. If I remember right, the last time we had one (a hung parliament), the governance of the country ground to a halt because the politicians were so busy blocking along party-political lines that total paralysis ensued. We need some new blood, a new vision, an Obama – rather than the bunch of immature, greedy, short-sighted politicians we have. My father used to say the only good politician is a dead one, and I have to say I think he’s right – the only time you hear what good people these guys are, is after they kick the bucket.

So … let’s hope that it is a shift of the wheel, a new era, as the cards first said, rather than a hung parliament, which might have just been a bad interpretation. I don’t see how a new era can dawn if we have a hung parliament. Anyway, whatever the outcome, may the Devas bring some healing and compassion (and vision) to all of us.

12th May – Well, it seems my prediction was correct in that after 5 days of watching and waiting, with Nick Clegg holding the balance of power, he and the LibDems are now helping the Conservatives form a government. After Brown resigned yesterday afternoon I was concerned that Clegg would try to ally himself with Labour instead – and I think 3 terms of Labour is more than enough. So yes, a big turn of the wheel. Let’s hope that instead of playing their normal political games, this coalition continues to pull together for the good of the country. With the economy still in a complete mess and a desperate need for intelligent farsightedness, we cannot afford to have our politicians scoring off each other like kindergarten kids.

Tarot readings online?

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There are various sites offering free tarot readings online. Some are excellent, some just passable. One of the best (at least in my view!) was produced by a friend of mine and offers different spreads from a selection of tarot and oracle decks. Have a go – –  feedback from readings is excellent. The link will take you direct to the The Intuitive Tarot page (if you want to try a different pack, see below).

The first thing you need to decide is which spread you want: they range from the Celtic spread to a three-card spread, or even a single card. If you choose the three card spread, identify what you want each card to stand for (Past, Present, Future; or Advantages, Disadvantages, Outcome, would be useful categories.

Most of the remaining options are fairly obvious: you can choose to enter your name or remain anonymous. You can choose to read with Major Arcana only, which is probably not a good idea for a large spread. You can choose to shuffle the cards, and finally, you can have the date displayed. Having ticked the relevant boxes, you can now move onto the next page. If you’ve chosen to shuffle the deck, place the cursor over the deck (don’t click) and the cards will shuffle about. Then choose each one, identifying the positions if necessary. Once you’ve chosen the right number of cards, click ‘Show me my reading’.

At the moment there are no facilities for printing or storage, so if you wish to make a note of the cards, you can highlight the whole reading and copy and paste it into a Word document. In a few weeks’ time we hope to give you the facility for both storage and print, so watch this space.

If you would like to try a different pack, go to the Students-of-Tarot homepage. Here you’ll see a whole raft of decks including an option for ‘Modern Packs’. If you hover your mouse over any of the deck titles, they should display mini-thumbnails). In addition, the list in the centre offers a few more decks, (see a choice of classic decks and spreads).

To get a reading from an oracle deck – for instance my other deck, the Devas of Creation – follow the same procedure as I outlined for The Intuitive Tarot. Bear in mind the Devas are higher level energies and although they often give very grounded and specific advice, asking them about financial matters or whether your relationship will work, is probably not the best use of their power.

I should stress also that tarot and oracles are not ‘fortune telling’. Most readers today see the tarot as a tool to look at general trends and underlying issues in our lives, the options facing us, and suggested actions. Although the tarot certainly does give glimpses into the future, we are the arbiters of our own destiny.

The Tarot and Quantum Physics

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Mankind and Oracles

Mankind has probably been using oracles of one sort or another for as long as we have been recognisably human. We’ve used bones, entrails, yarrow stalks, coins, water, stones, the stars, dreams, cards, tea-leaves, handwriting. The Delphic Oracle functioned for hundreds of years, with eminent kings consulting it regularly and even fighting wars based on its predictions. The Bible is full of references to prophets and prophetic dreams. Contemporary Chinese still make a point of ensuring that any action they are planning takes place on an auspicious day, and even here in the sceptical West, every newspaper carries astrological predictions. Unfortunately these, and other predictive tools, are currently considered either highly suspect, or solely for the simple-minded. The reason for this is primarily our reliance on reductive logic and scientific empiricism (and our tendency to think that we have all the answers).

It’s ironic, then, that the explanation for how oracles work will almost certainly come through the latest scientific research – specifically through quantum physics. However, don’t worry – there’ll be no equations here, just the bare bones of the latest concepts.

The Quantum World

Physicists consider that as we move ever smaller from our usual world of matter, past the level of the most powerful electron microscopes, down into the world of subatomic particles, we reach a world with laws that seem fundamentally different to our own: filled with probabilities and organized chaos, where matter may and not exist simultaneously, where our perception of phenomena can bring them into existence, or alter them. Underlying all this apparent chaos, however, there is an underlying unity: an energy or ‘field’ that exists throughout the universe, a constant ‘particle exchange’ that is never completely static. They call this zero-point energy (the nearest that subatomic matter ever gets to zero motion) and for a long while ignored it, subtracting its effects from their calculations. But then one physicist, Hal Puthoff, realised that this zero-point field (ZPF) could be a vast unharnessed energy source – and started what may well prove to be the breakthrough of the third millennium. The more Puthoff studied the ZPF, the more possibilities he saw in this vast underlying sea of energy. All matter in the universe could now be seen as interconnected by waves of energy. Matter itself is part of the same energy field – in other words there is no division between the material and the immaterial. Nor is there any longer a disconnect between the quantum and the macro worlds. Even gravity – the sticking-point of scientific theories for centuries – can be explained by taking the ZPF into account.

The implications of this, and other new discoveries based on this energy, are mind-blowing; the wonder is that it is taking so long to filter through to general consciousness. Lynne Taggart’s book ‘The Field’ discusses the different aspects of the research and its tantalising possibilities: for example the ability to ‘turn off’ gravity (the long-term applications of which are world-shattering); produce new WARP drives for space exploration; or even travel through wormholes to distant parts of the universe. We could extract energy from The Field as a solution for the looming energy crisis; produce new digital medicine-applications; even kill dangerous bugs with electromagnetic signals.

More relevant to this article is the discovery that the ZPF implies information exchange, as well as energy exchange, and could therefore provide instantaneous communication. The phenomena we call the occult or paranormal, such as telepathy, telekinesis, the Tarot and other oracular devices, foresight, intuition, and dreams, would just be part of this exchange, as we are part of The Field. As mystics have said for millennia, there is no separation. Equally important, this also corroborates the metaphysical tenet – that we create our own reality.

The Two of Rods and its relevance to today’s political climate

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This was sent to me by Gary Oppenhuis on Facebook, and it is so apposite I thought I would share it with you…

‘I periodically perform Tarot readings for myself, as a meditative interaction, a time of spiritual play and reverance, delighting in the random coincidences.  Often I choose a word or phrase as the focal point for these tarot interactions.

‘For a recent reading, I chose the word “Progress“.   Progress as a verb, as in “going forward”.  I want/need to Progress in many areas of my life.  For this reading, I used the Intuitive Tarot, by Cilla Conway.

‘The card I pulled was: the 2 of Rods.  Traditionally, the 2 of Rods (or Wands) is often associated with initiative, boldness, originality, commanding attention. Certainly appropriate themes to foster Progress!

‘And then I looked more closely at the specific imagery on this card.  And then I smiled, and glowed, and realized what day it was (Jan. 19, 2009, MLK Jr. day), and the momentous event that was about to take place the next day (Jan. 20, 2009):  the inauguration of Barack Obama as President of the United States!

‘The card depicts a tall, lean, dark, regal figure standing atop a hill (Capitol Hill?), holding an orb in his outstretched hand, reflecting on the state of the world. In the background there appears to be a vast multitude of faces, of many colors.  A larger orb glows at the top of the card, like a spotlight or Sun.

‘The scene is like a leader or actor on a great stage, pondering and expressing a vision of progress. The 2 parallel rods or bars crossing the orb could represent the 2 great leaders (Martin Luther King and Obama), and the ladder they have helped to build in the climb towards unity.  The 2 bars crossing the “O” is somewhat reminiscent of the Obama campaign logo.

‘I normally do not relate personal readings to public events, but the symbolic impact of this card, and of this moment, gave me a tremendous lift and feeling of positive transformation as we all work towards Progress, for our selves, for each other, and for the world.’

Thank you Gary!